Showing Up When I Don’t Feel Good

I haven’t really given much of an update about how I’m doing physically since my surgery.  Perhaps that’s because I wish I had some kind of great report to give, but I don’t.  I’ve had a really rocky recovery and there are […]

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Pushing Through The Pain

  One of the most challenging obstacles that I’ve encountered as a result of telling my story is that people in my life who think they know the story have twisted it.  I have been confessing and owning my sins as the […]

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Trusting God When It Doesn’t Make Sense

When I’m out in nature I love to stop and take pictures of the flowers in bloom.  It’s healing to my soul.  When I get up close I can see God’s fingerprints all over his creation. Some days my prayers feel a […]

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God’s Timing Doesn’t Always Make Sense

I sat down to work on a blog post the other day and after five and a half hours I felt like I hadn’t accomplished anything. It’s frustrating when I show up per God’s request and He doesn’t let the words flow […]

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One Person, Loving One Person, Makes All The Difference

Two days before Christmas I received a phone call from an old friend and mentor, Mrs. H.  God had been pressing me to get in touch with her to tell her about some things and I was struggling to obey his prompting. […]

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Writing From The Rubble

No, no! I don’t want to go!  That is what my heart has cried out to the Lord more times than I can count.  Inevitably, it has become a goal for me to discipline the obstinant girl inside of me that doesn’t […]

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I Can Do Anything for 15 Minutes

But I will stay on at Ephesus until Pentecost,  because a great door for effective work has opened to me, and there are many who oppose me.  1 Corinthians 16:8-9 I went to the doctor yesterday.  Well, actually I almost went to the doctor. […]

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Sorry I’m late, I didn’t want to come

  I’ve been trying to figure out where and how to pick up this story again.  When God called me to tell my story, I didn’t want to do it. He wanted me to lead with confessing my sins and telling everyone […]

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Explant and Heal

I had the Explant surgery I so desperately needed this week. The surgery was Friday, and today (Monday) I was finally able to cry. At 4am this morning I woke up and realized that today is the last day the nurse will […]

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Do You See The Red Flags?

Last night I was exhausted from pre-operation bloodwork and tests.  I had to go to the hospital, and I cannot even pretend it was good, other than the fact that it is over.  Up to this point, I’ve avoided the whole mask […]

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