I sat down to work on a blog post the other day and after five and a half hours I felt like I hadn’t accomplished anything. It’s frustrating when I show up per God’s request and He doesn’t let the words flow in a fitting way.  My heart was crying, “Hurry up God!”  Then I remembered 2 Peter 3:8 which says, But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day.

God’s timing is not the same as ours. His thoughts are not our thoughts and His ways are not our ways.  What began as a cry from my heart telling God to hurry up, turned into God reminding me that He is being patient with us all.

The LORD isn’t really being slow about his promise, as some people think. No, he is being patient for your sake. He does not want anyone to be destroyed, but wants everyone to repent. 2 Peter 3:9.

Sometimes I forget that I’m not responsible for the results.  My job is to be obedient and do what God has called me to do.  He’s God, so it’s on Him to open people’s eyes and hearts.

Recently, I found myself with a bad case of writers block.  When I took it to the LORD He encouraged me to just show up for 15 minutes and post. I did and it felt great, because 15 minutes isn’t a long time to get my thoughts out there, add pictures and verses and edit.  It was the perfect prescription for me that day.

Unfortunately, I have been mis judged while telling my story.  God called me to give my testimony and there are some people who have been hurting me for answering the call.    I’ve been gossiped about, yelled at, sworn at, stone walled and shunned.  This is an extremely short and pitifully incomplete version of a long a painful leg of my journey.  The bottom line is that some people don’t want me to give my testimony.

Some of the people who have come against me are enemies of the cross, even though they have done some very hurtful things to me, these are not the people I want to talk to today.  I understand that unbelievers don’t get where I’m at, they can’t, their minds are darkened.    Today, I want to talk to the Christians. I want to talk to the people who claim to follow Christ.

Did you forget that God Himself is the silent listener to every conversation?  There are very few who know my full testimony.  I don’t even have it all processed.  I’m literally in process.  God is helping me make sense of all of my sins AND the sins that were committed against me.

Every person has to give an account to the LORD.  God’s not shocked by anything I’ve said or done.   He knows it all and He loves me anyway. I understand that you are learning things about me that you did not know.  But that’s not who I am.  There is no condemnation in Christ Jesus.

I urge you to take a good look at my family.  Do you think that it’s easy for my kids  to be part of all of this?

Unbelievers are watching the gossip and backstabbing.  They see us.  They see when we, lie, steal and cheat.  They see when we are stubborn and refuse to say sorry.  They see when we return evil for evil.  Like the word says, we are surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses.

I am not the same person I used to be.  God has allowed me to be a wife and a mother and now a grandmother. God changes people.  Let me tell my story so that they can see the Glory of God and praise Him.

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverancethe race marked out for us, Hebrews 12:1

A gossip betrays a confidence, but a trustworthy person keeps a secret. Proverbs 11:13

A perverse person stirs up conflict, and a gossip separates close friends. Proverbs 16:28

The sins of some are obvious, reaching the place of judgment ahead of them; the sins of others trail behind them. 1 Timothy 5:24

Let the redeemed of the Lord tell their story— those he redeemed from the hand of the foe,Psalm 107:2