I Can Do Anything for 15 Minutes
But I will stay on at Ephesus until Pentecost, because a great door for effective work has opened to me, and there are many who oppose me.
I went to the doctor yesterday. Well, actually I almost went to the doctor. When I was six minutes away I received a phone call from the doctors office canceling my appointment. She told me that they (unfortunately) wouldn’t be able to reschedule for several weeks.
Last month I showed up at a Greifshare group and the next day I received a phone call from one of the leaders asking me not to come back. “Can you do that I asked? Can you really tell a grieving person not to come?”
I reached out to an old counselor and requested an appointment. I explained that I’m trying to process some pain and I think counseling could help. We went back and forth with some texts and then nothing.
Seriously, I have been doing all of the things I’ve been taught. I’ve joined into communities, made myself vulnerable and I’ve been willing to face my character flaws where God wants me to grow. But lately, every single door has been shut in my face. Every door has been shut, except for this one.
I’m not sure what this is going to look like because I’ve just jumped off the cliff. I told God that I would show up here for 15 minutes and see what comes out. We can take this bit by bit. You get what you get and don’t throw a fit! That’s what I used to tell my kids when they shoved away their dinner plates.
They triumphed over him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death. Revelation 12:11
